Saturday- Msz. Charlene came over. We jus' chilled nothing special. I was going to go with her to GSP but my mom came home too late, so I basically couldn`t get Christine a gift. But yeah, we went to her sweet 16. It was funny because we got lost a total of: 2 times. Lol, the indian guy, chyeah, i couldnt understand him. so i basically had no clue what he was saying. But we finally found it. We were 30 minutes late, and when we walked in we were by the door, and it was pretty gay because everyone was staring at us like "omg, are they supposed to be here". pretttty embarassing, but Christine told me to go mingle, but i told her everyone hated us. But yeah, i basically stuck with Charlene. It was fun i guess, we did the electric slide. then we ate some food, and her cake was beautiful. we left exactly at 9, and my mom was like be outside at 9. WTF, she came at like 9:45, so me and charlene were freezing our asses off. but at the same time it was great because we saw norah, and katie fighting over some gay shit. A SWEATER. it was funny cause norah was putting on make-up and not paying attention to katie. but yeah after 10 minutes they made up and left. so it wasnt really a fight. then after the party we drove to my grandmas work ans picked her up. on the way there i was talking about what i might have gotten wrong on the drivers test since i failed it 3 times. and i was saying all the right answers, meanwhile my mom was laughing at me. i was like WTF is so funny. but yeah then we drove back to charlenes house, i fell asleep on the way there. i was soooo tired. i told charlene i wanted to try a cigarette, cause i`m a loser and have never tried one in my life, but she was like i wont talk to you if you try one. i was like wow. whatever. she also told me that her brother was going off to train for iraq. sucks alot. i`ll be there for her thought. me and her are like best friends.

Sunday- i went to paterson to get my nails done. they're red. i was rockin red and black today, like i was a blood member. so i decided to get my nails the same way. i got a new set, but i only had 40 bux on me, and he was like well if you want them long (and i love my nails long) then it was going to have to be 43 bux. WHICH I DIDNT HAVE! grrr, so my nails are short and stubby and i hate them. but oh well. so we stayed in paterson longer than i wanted to. i saw aleysha erk with her man, DAMNNNNN. her man has THE sexiest eyes on earth. he's spanish, and shes italian, his eyes are like naturally grey. OMG. so sexy!! but i didnt say hi to her, i kinda ignored her. then i asked my mom to get me these fusion shoes cause they look hella cute, but she basically ignored me like always. so whatever, i`ll get them when i have money. WHICH BRINGS ME TO MY NEXT POINT! we drove to the chinese place across from my house, Bo Ya Palace, and they just opened meaning: JOB OPPORTUNITIES!! and YES i applied. They were rediculously busy. People in vernon are RUDE. they dont know how to wait, especially they fat fags. Ew, this one fat whore who thought she was the shit, had her black pants suctioning to her ass. it was all lumpy and shit. i was like helllll no. it was gross. but yeah they were so busy, i felt bad. this one girl who looked like 13 (NOT LEGAL) was working the register, and this one guy was obviously in a rush.. she made a mistake and he was like get with the program. :/ they're sooo mean. but yeah i cant wait to work there, charlene might work there with me :] so happy.

Bleh, school's tomorrow. I didnt type that shit for the step team, and i`ll tell everyone about the bo ya palace so we can all work there together. hehe <33

I`ve been gone for a while. but some shit has been goin` on. Let`s see.. Week before halloween, there was a fight every day in my school. it was an emotional week for everyone actually. someone's mother died because they found out last minute that she had cancer. so that was hard for the people on the field hockey team. otherwise fights wee jus` everywhere. shit was crazy. anyway. in my lab, me and john d kept talkin` about driver's ed. i fuckin failed my test 3 fuckin times. i really don't know how. and it sucks because i got a 78 two times and a 76 once, and you need an 80 to pass. so now i have to study for 15 hours. i think i`m going to wait till i turn 16 to actually get my permit. then halloween came. it was hella fun! i went with charlene and her sister and her friends. it was weird cause i was the youngest, everyone else were college students. but it's cool cause they still thought i was chill. they said i need to go and chill with them more often at their house. so maybe i will :]. i got half a plastic bag full of candy. oh! and i dressed up as a "Certified gangster". looked hot. lol.

so the elections came up. blehh. i`m mad bush won. i mean, what the hell has he done to our country to improve it? not that i should be talkin` cause i hate the US anyway, but what he's basically doing is making the rich richer, and the middle classmen have to struggle with the up and rising taxes. and mann, if he reinstates the draft, forget it! we're going to be done. i`m also mad that kerry conceded. then his gay side kick had the nerve to say, "we'll make sure that every vote is counted" uhmm, HELLO, you jus' conceded, and your still going to make sure that all votes count? what good is that going to do you. i don`t know. maybe it's jus' me, but i don't think bush should have gotten re-elected.

so me marlenny santa and carla finally finished the letter for our dance team, but marlenny showed it to her parents and they said we need to add more to the letter. the letter is already a page long. i don't want it to sound like an english paper. marlenny said that we need a "sample video" to show them, what our step team is going to be all about. i also have to include the funding and all that. what sucks is that we're not going to be able to get the letter in to the principal before basketball season if we do all this shit. so i don't know, i might have to just give it in on tuesday.

woo! we have no school today or friday which is great. i`m going to christine ross`s sweet 16 on saturday. that should be fun. but it sucks because all these punks/skaters are going to be there, and i`m going to feel kinda, "out there". she said i can invite someone if i wanna. but i don`t know who :|. i`ll have to call some people up and see whas` good. i also don't know what to get her. i asked her what she wanted and she was like, i dont want anything. and it's weird cuhz it's her sweet 16 and i don't wanna get there and not have a gift for her :/. all i know is that her favorite color is green. so i`m thinking i`ll go to GSP saturday morning and see what i can find.

anyways, i might chill with Kara in paterson on sunday, or we might go to the wayne mall. i`ll have to IM or call her and see whas` goin` on. other than that high school has been iight. changing my schedule soon.

i got new pictures!@#$$%!! look on my site -> www.cpixel.com and search for loka_mamii_x. hope ya` like `em, to whoever reads this shit :]

so yesterday i went to paterson to get clothes my nails done my hair done and a jacket. my jacket is hella nice. i love it. and my nails are iight i guess, i was in a hurry and i told the guy to hurry up, so my nails kinda look fucked up, but oh well. i got 3 pairs of jeans and a sweater. and my hair welp, it looks bad cause this old lady, she was like 80, blow-dryed it. looks real bad. she was like ooo i like it.. sexy . i was like heh, sure? i saw a girl from manchester huwanatoo. she was with her man.

today was alright. second period, i really hate. i have a project due, and i don`t have a partner, so it sucks basically cause i have to put all the effort into it. which i rarely do. lunch was okay, i was out of it today, i was barely talking. but after lunch i was walking to class with marlenny and i was talkin about a dance team with her. me her and charlene are going to start vernon`s 1st step team. it'll be like they had on true life. i wanna start it this year, and have try-outs and get an instructor for us. that`d be sooooooooooo hot. we could arrange pep rally's and what not. but yeah, i need to do some more research and ask Ms. Stacey if she could be our instructor. i just hope that last minute their not like, "yo, i can`t do it" cause that would piss me off.

7th period we watch the crucible on tape. it was interesting i guess. winona rider played the part of abaigail. she's pretty good at it. some parts were funny, but the part where they were whipping tituba, wasn't funny. i thought i was going to cry :|. but of course the boys thought it was funny, but then they realized there were 2 black people in their class so they shut their mouths.

last period that girl victoria was dead staring at me. so i`m like hmmm, let me just dead stare at her back. so my eyes were meetin` with her for a good 30 seconds until she noticed that i was lookin at her. yup, it's official, she has a staring problem. oh well, i don't care.

i`m gonna talk more about the step team tomorrow at lunch and hopefully we can get something figured out.

byesz <3

so i got up at like 7:55 today. hadda move all our junk from the backyard to wendy`s truck to bring to the garbage place. justin helped us. i almost broke a nail ;[. oh well. i was mostly chillin in our denali.

after that my mom drove me to the bank so i could get my money for tomorrow. i got 140 outta the bank. she ends up "borrowing" 40 dollars. lord knows shes not going to pay me back. i dont know why i give her money in the first place :/ but yeah, i`m going to FORCE her to give it to me tomorrow.

so then i stayed home for like 4 hours. gabi called me, and we were SUPPOSED to go to the mall but she couldn`t cause she had a project. oh well, maybe next week? she was tellin` me how she wants to go to 6 flags for fright fest or go to the mall with her friends. i might invite marlenny and santa. not sure though. and charlene too.

so then i went to charlene`s party. when i first got there i was like DAMN, nice interior. i LOVEEEEEEEEE their house. i thought hella people were going to be there. but apparently not :/ oh well. so i went to the movie room. the hell, my ass hadda sit on the floor cause i didnt wanna sit infront of everyone. so my big ass was sittin by the door. pretty gay. my back was killlllllin me. and my foot went numb. shit hurt!. but then dereck was like this shit is boring and asked who wanted to play football. mad people got off the couch. i was happy. i was like thank you Jesus. then charlene told me to sit down. so i did :]. then we went to eat.. pizza. i had two slices with some orange soda. then we watched some of the butterfly effect. but i wasn`t really paying attention. then dereck said my mom was there, and when I was puttin my shoes on, he was all up on me huggin` me. i didn`t even know the boy. i was like hmm, move? but then i went outside and told my mom to come inside and say hi because it would be rude if we just left. so she came inside and said hi, and we ended up staying for an extra hour. then i started to talk to dominique, and i found out that hes from paterson. he knew some people that i knew like vanessa razz naomi manuel. he was like "yeahhhhhhhh i know them" he was pretty funny. he was grabbin` me too. i was like the hell, get off me. but yea he was talkin bout he was gunna move to vernon and live ontop of the gas station. i was like hahahhahaha, yeah ok. but then we finally left. long ass ride home, so i was just talkin` to my mom of how nice their house was.

so anyway, im goin to hand in my application tomorrow. and then im going to paterson. and then i hafta start my french project along with my 1000 word essay for drivers ed. bleh. school sucksssssssss ;x.

type in this tomorrow.

[font=Tahoma]today was iight i guess. it was crazy hat/hair day. i jus wore my padre`s fitted. all the prep girls were staring at me, i was like move your eyes somewhere else, or i would just stare them down.

first period that fuckface senior was looking at me as usual. she`s sooo ugly, she`s from garfield, and walks like, i don`t even know how to describe it, but she thinks she`s the shit.

second period was pretty gay, french SUCKS. i have a unit test coming up, and we`re still on shit from french 1 cause we have freshman in our class that haven`t learned that shit. so like always i just daze off cause i mean, it`s so gay.

third period was a sub :]. he had a BIG ONE ;xx. not that i was LOOKING or anything, it just "popped out?". but uhmm, was watched a video about SHAPES. geometry, blowsss.

then i had lunch and i was jus talkin` with marlenny and santa. then lexi was talking about how she looked once again. i was like you look like shit... always. but uhmm, marlenny and santa were wearing fitted`s too, so i didn`t feel all weird.

5th period i was talkin to ariella, and she said she was talkin` to a guy from paterson the other day. i was like word, what school does he go to, eastside or kennedy. she told me this nigga said WESTSIDE. and then he tried to play it off like "westside, eastside, a-town left" or some gay bullshit like that. i was like hmm, he`s wackkk. then we were like people in our school ae country and get things up here so late. and we walked to class, she was acting real dumb, like go this way, no this way, no this way. lord.

6th period pep team came in talked about sex and what not and how we're going to be having workshops in driver`s ed from now on. and how we`re going to miss one day out of gym just for the workshops. i hadda 200 word essay due, TCCH, didn`t do it. oh well. i have an insurance quiz coming up soon, pretty gay. and the state test is coming up also ;|

7th period was bray`s class. we read the play out loud. i swear they really can`t read, which ruins the book for me cause then i just daze off.

then i went to history, i got a 90 on one homework assignment and a 75 on the other. everyone was staring at my fitted, especially Victoria. she has a staring problem. but anyway.. that was my day, pretty boring.

homecoming is comin` up!! i might go, but it sucks that we have to pay ahead of time. last year they just paid at the door. it sucks that io can`t invite people ;[[. hafta wear student id`s. OMG! psat`s are comin up pretty soon too ((saturday)). i hafta hand in my application for mountain creek too. so much shit goin` on saturday. i wanna get clothes on saturday too, but eh, i have no money, and my mom is being gay and won`t let me take money out of my bank account. so bleh.[/font=Tahoma]

So today I was loud at lunch and outside. Screamin peoples names and what not.

MANNN, I have to do an essay for Bray`s class. fuckin` like 5 pages. it`s crazy. then for drivers ed i have to do a 1000 word essay. yes one thousand words. or an alternative assignment, which is come up with some creative bullshit. like i have time for that. tcch. i get distracted to easily, it`s not even funny.

so @ lunch i helped marlenny with her geo homework. and we talked about basketball and how she popped her back out. eeeek. i almost threw up. but that`s ok. i talked to some people in science. john d and his long hair. he covered his goggles during lab. looked like a replicate of cousin "it". lol. but we were talking about how gay it is that we have to wear aprons and goggles. all we were working with was water and rocks. WOW, i might die from that. ;O oh melissa got her nails done. they look hella nice for airbrush. it's like a faded pink base with purple and white stars. soo cute. ariella`s nails are plain for the moment. EVERYONE GOT THEIR NAILS DONE BECAUSE OF ME. FUCKIN` DIPSHITS ;x. get your own damn style. then i asked gerry if he was italian cause he had FBI on his sweatshirt. he was like nahh, i`m puerto rican. i`m like oh, most people say rican dumb ass. ew, he speak japanese. the hell. he forever stares at my ass too. he`ll let me walk through the door before he does. then -BLOOP- the eyes drop down. i`m like can you stop, thanks.

then i went to english. the room setup totally changed. so i walked in like, wtf is this. and i sat in the back. we started a new book called the crucibal. the beginning is pretty funny. I SWEAR. people in my class dont know how to read. i appear to be black, and sterotypically, people think i can`t read too well. but uhmmm, i can read just fine, and fast. thank you.

;OO rawr, i need more peoples for my sweet 16 court if honor. i wanna ask marlenny and santa, but i`m not sure ;|. they're going to be like i thought it was traditional, bla bla bla. i just wanna party with hella peoples. but eh, i don`t know. we`ll see. i asked nicole, gabi, and tina to be in my court. i might ask charlene melissa latoya samiyah santa and marlenny. and MAYBE laura, but she doesnt talk to me, and shes spoiled. so i dont know.

my dad said he`ll chip in but i dont want him to cause i want him to go out and buy me a gift for once in my life. so i`m going to work like 5 jobs literally, and save up. buy my dress get a dj caterer all that....dance hall. grr. so much. but i`ll get it all done, and it`ll be done right ;].

welp, back to my paper now.. i`lL holla ;D

so today was gay. i sat at lunch or whatever. i didn`t even talk cause they weren`t talking. i was like i`m better off sitting by myself. shit was gay ;|. marlenny put " i heart marlenny " on gio`s bookbag. that was pretty funny. thennn, it got gay again. Lunch was over, and Marlenny and I walked to class. She was like wow your so quiet, i`m like no i`m really not.. you just don`t know me like that. She was like that`s because you don`t talk.  I`m like well I have nothing to talk about with you all. They don`t whyle out like most people I know. Dignity is too much to them ;|.  Soo it sucks. OMG!@#! I didn`t know we had to take a state test in DE. What the hell, I don`t understand shit in his class. It needs to be behind the wheel driving, because him blabbering on about mon-sense curves and speed limits puts me to sleep. And English SUCKS!! We`re finishing the book by Wednesday and we have to do a take home quiz. I`M STILL ON CHAPTER 12!!. Everyone else is on chapter 22. That reminds me, I have to read chapter 22 tonight. I might just do that online, jus cause it`s a hell of a lot easier.

So ANYWAY...

EW, i made these greasy ass muffin`s 1st period for international foods. that shit leaked through the paper plate and left a big ass grease stain on my book. it was embarassing because people were staring like, "damn, she must eat a lot of chicken at home"

i talked to Arey in the hall today. It wasn`t about anything special. I just told her that Melissa was looking for her after class. Didn`t think she knew my name, but she thanked me.

i was supposed to get nicole`s balloons after school, but i decided not to cause uhmmm, wtf we don`t even talk anymore. so whatever. i doubt she`ll invite me to her party. so whatever.

i saw gianna today, they got a new car also. and so did our other neighbor`s. i guess it`s get a new car month or some shit.

Homecoming is coming up in like 2 weeks. I might go ;|. Dunno though. I might just go to the football game and that`s it.

Mkay, so it was another boring day in the life of Melissa at VTHS. How gay ;|.

so on saturday, we went to jersey city to pick up our new car. it's a denali [SUV]. it`s black. it has two dvd players, and a 6 disc changer. it`s hot. when you sit in it, you feel like your on top of the world. sound system, needs improvement, but that`s ok.

so luisa is coming to ny for christmas and new years. that should be fun.

oo, i went to the movies with gabi, brittany, her friend and mo. it was okay i guess. i felt like a 5th wheel, like always. everyone kept asking me if i was having fun. i was like yeahp. when we actually went to see the movie, i sat away from them because i didn`t wanna see everyone makin` out, and jus` doin` all that mooshy crap ;/. shit was just terrible. i was alone the whole night. it's not like old times anymore, its gay. i saw these 4 girls at the movies on saturday, they reminded me of the old days. they were jus' whylin` out, not givin a shit about anyone else. now-a-days, everyone has to talk about their man 24/7. think about him 24/7, call him 24/7 blah blah blah. shit`s not the same anymore. best friends forever, doesn`t come into play at all. but whatever, what can i do? all i can do it pretend like i`m happy.

oh well.

so today was boring, and fuckin` cold ;|. i didn`t do anything, i  was supposed to go to Paterson to get my hair done, my nails done, and some clothes, but my mom had to go to work. so i hadda stay home and babysit. -sigh- nicole was supposed to call me like 4 days ago. never happened. i swear i have no friend`s. melissa wanted to go to paterson, but she`s on lock for a month. therefore latoya couldn`t go.

 tomorrow`s another day of school. i have to get nicole`s balloons but i have no money. my mom owes me money, but of course she doesn`t have any to give me. so i guess i`ll starve this week.

 welp, nothing more to say.

bye.

So, I woke up this morning, rushing to the bus stop, so that I wouldn`t miss it. Thank God I didn't. Got to school, saw Nicole and she basically bum-rushed my ass to show Mike her cut on her finger. Yeah, that was nice right. Then I gave her her note and asked her about Paterson on Saturday. She said she didn't know, and I said to call m tonight or tomorrow night. Hope she can go. Anyway, I sat by myself at lunch today, pretty embarassing.. but what can I say, I have no friends. Then later on in the day fuckin` Marlenny goes "I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER" SO I CAN FUCKIN` HEAR IT. BLAHHH. Oh well. So second period was gay. I was absent yesterday, and I have make up work. 3rd period sucked too, I have to make up a test. Then lunch, then science. I go up to the teacher, I don`t even know the woman's name, and I ask her if I missed any work. She decides to be all funny and say "what do you think.. do you think we just sat here all day" I gave her one of my stares, and i was like i don't know. then she laughs, and i just stare like woman your not funny, just stop. so i had to take notes.  fuckin' ariella was trying to show her jordans off to me. like i really give a shit bout her jordans. she was wearing pajama pants ontop of it, so she really wasn't matching. then i went to driver's ed and we watched espnm because half the class was missing due to lab. then i went to english, and come to find out i have to type a skit for my group because their printeres supposedly don't work. i finished it around 5, shit is 3 pages. and we had the shortest chapter. -tcch- then i went to history and took a test. had 4 essays -- they were pretty easy. so i think i passed with about an 80 or so. i think that's pretty good because i didn't study. before history i saw this new kid. he looks like he's from newark or jersey city or even paterson. he had a RIP shirt for one of his friends. but he looks pretty good. i mean compared to the rest of the people in my school, he looks good. so yeah, nuttin` more to say... jus hella bored. i`lL holLa :]